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forgotten optimismThis is it.forgotten optimism by ~crytalstellar
i won't look to the dark side
anymore.
the light's been waiting
to remind me
that i can cling
to more than the things
that could go
wrong.
this is me,
finding my
sixteen year old
self.
Letting her hope
swallow me
whole.

descentdanglingdescent by ~crytalstellar
above the blackest of holes
i struggled and struggled
but it got me no where.
he's holding the rope
it's a choice
whether or not i sink
into distant seclusion-
it's all in his hands.
lowering
his grip is loosening
i'm sinking deeper
sacrifices must be made.
i don't look at him.
i'm far too afraid.
it doesn't matter
if he's cruel or kind
he's already decided.
preparing
waited all this time,
to lock my heart away.
perhaps it's the last time.
i don't want to hang anymore.
my anchor fickle.
there's a freedom in falling forever
so let go
save me.

JadedOnce upon a time,Jaded by ~crytalstellar
the belief in happy endings
was a driving force in my life.
But Disney fooled me
with their rendition of Cendrillon.
The road to "happily ever after"
isn't paved by fairy godmothers
and talking mice,
but by the battles you have to fight-
assuming you get there.
Maybe I'm just bitter,
or blessed with suck.
Yet, I keep going,
like a knight in sour armor.
"Happy endings" aren't easy,
but they're probably worth struggling for.
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